Here is something I’ve realized. I am my own worst enemy. I do not give myself credit for the small things I’ve achieved. Too focused on the bigger picture and greater ideals of what I want my writing to be, I lost all sense of appreciating what it was. I hated every single piece; I believed there was an area of lack though I couldn’t pinpoint what that was. I kept comparing the things I wrote to other past pieces and thought my sense of expression was crooked. It wasn’t the same. Wasn’t deep enough. Wasn’t moving enough. I was desperate for approval from myself, yet I couldn’t accept my writing. Even though I still shared it here, even though I believed it to be acceptable – each piece seemed mediocre in some way. And now I can see I got in the way of my own growth. I criticized myself to the point I no longer thought I had what it took to write anything of worth. So, I just left it alone. This is the reason I stopped writing altogether. I’d given in to the voices; sunken far beyond the surface of pity and self-loathing. This is the ugly side of me. The part I am still trying to overcome. No pretty words this time. No creative layers to hide behind. I just wanted to tell the truth.
An Ugly Truth
10 responses to “An Ugly Truth”
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Girllll, first, I hope you get back to writing! Missed having you around!
Second, we all are at fault for putting so much pressure on ourselves and constantly criticizing ourselves. But the thing to remember is – are you having fun? If you are – it doesn’t have to be perfect. If doing something imperfectly still sparks joy in you – forget about the rest!
Hope you’ll keep writing!
PS: I have always loved your writing. 🙂 ❤
https://mokshahegde.wordpress.com/2021/03/12/blogger-recommendations-part-2/-
shared the link to remind you ❤
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You’re absolutely right. It still makes me happy to write, though I get sidetracked so often about how it sounds. But thank you so much for your warm encouragement (and lovely shoutout!) ❤️ it means more to me than you’ll ever know and it will keep me going 💕 thank you✨
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Thanks so much Aby ❤
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I’m working through it. Thank you so much ❤ I'm happy you find my work enjoyable 🙂 it means a lot.
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Thank you so much ❤
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